Patience and Waiting

Patience and waiting. I understand those two but what is it called when while waiting nothing is really being done. Is it laziness or something on the verge of a feeling of hopelessness? Because thats where I am now and thats the conclusion I've come up with. In my Now What? blogs I was vaguely describing my life and whats been going through my head in the previous months. Now I'm here to write about the present and presently I don't know whats been going on. I've been writing these entries to inspire me to get up and do something but for me inspiration only seems to be temporary. I don't seem to be as focused as I was last week so thats why I continue to write. To keep my mind on track and force the habit of focusing back into me. I've been reading alot recently but sometimes I would lose the desire for study and be distracted by other books, TV shows, movies, and music. There's nothing wrong with a little break now and again but for me I get consumed. I'll get so into one thing and my thoughts will be totally redirected to it instead of where I feel I need to be. This is one of those ruts I mentioned in an earlier post. I have my life so full of stuff but when you put all that stuff together it equal nothing compared to what I need. I've been filling my life with nothingness to distract me and occupy my mind. So I am writing again trying to keep my mind on track.